I went to my friend April’s birthday party last night. It was a weird night.
I had lots and lots of booze but never really felt drunk, in spite of the fact that I’ve severely restricted my own usual drinking habits since about a week after Beach Trip (mostly because I refuse to spend what little money I have on something that’s not of immeadiate nutritional value) and should therefore be much more of a lightweight. It might’ve been the combination of all that booze with lots and lots of sugar and other foods (FREE FOOD!), or maybe it was perhaps my pacing of such stuffs consumption, or the fact that I intentionally avoided everything beer. I drank a lot overall but only had, maybe (rough estimate *wince*) about 1-3 shots/drinks (a combo of tequila, rum, and wine) an hour. I don’t know. 
I was giddy, yes, I found things hellishly funny, yes, I was more outgoing than what’s usual, yes, but I never lost any sense balance, my awareness of my surroundings, or my ability to make rational choices and NOT be a total douche. It was a good kind of drinking, I guess… if there even IS such a thing.I had a good time. :)
I mingled with all sorts of different people, even when the party split into two groups for a time… the way it always seems to do at April’s parties. See, half of April’s friends are, like, fellows from the Denton queer community, and the other half’s a bunch of grad-plus students and English majors from the college. So usually the party either splits into queer and not queer factions (most common), girl and guy factions, or (far more rarely) college-y and not college-y factions.
But I’m odd: I like all the factions. I can be one of the queers, one of the litgeeks, one of the party crazies, OR even one of the guys when I want to (although at moments it was like “we’re doing guy things and why the frickin’ frack is there a girl in our midst?!”).
And it tickles me to mingle in all of the areas/groups the way few of the others seem to do. I like to fuck shit up, when it comes to social dynamics, at least when I’m in the mooooood (ahem, when I’ve had tequila). I’m always socially awkward anyway, so it hardly matters to me (especially after tequila) except when I’m in my dark place (it’s genetic, sue me).
I had many one-on-one conversations, too, and each conversation was awesome in its own way…
I had a rambling and joking conversation with a girl named Erica that ended with us challenging each other to a future tequila drinking contest. We then joked about how we should train for it the way our triathlon friends trained for the last triathlon. Then we did mock lunges while pretending to drink lots of booze, and Jess came out of nowhere to take pictures of this. xD Hilarity.
I also had a lengthy conversation with one of the dudes about wine. We wino-geeked for a good thirty mintues!
I then cuddled with an awesome mutt dog named Banjo. He proved to everyone just how freakishly well trained he is (knows how to sit, lay down, come when whistled/called, etc.), and this even surprised his owner!
At some point, I bumped into Tess. It was a surprise to me and I think to some of the others as well. I remembered that Alexis, Tess and I seemed pretty close for a month or two about two years ago, but I really haven’t spent any time with Tess since. I also forgot that I’ve never really known quite how to approach or regard her as well. Not that I feel any ill will towards her, in fact I sometimes get the impression that we could be really close but… I don’t know. Eventually we drank blackberry wine and somehow got onto the subject of astrology, at which point we totally went off the deep end! We got carried away with this crazy deep conversation and with the sharing of teh feelings…
And she’s all like, “man, we need to talk like this more often!”
And I’m like, “dude we totally had this exact same conversation two whole years ago!”
I forgot how intense Tess is and how conversations with her just seem to… I don’t know… seem to suck a person in like that. But then she started shivering (we were in the backyard with a bunch of ot
hers) and she said she was going to grab her jacket. She never came back out. In fact, she left just as abruptly as she came.
I got carried away in other conversations and completely didn’t notice until some time later, but yeah. I don’t even know. xD
Just gotta take it in stride, I guess.
And then before Alexis and her new girl left, her new girl (Rachel) told me that I totally look like Gabrielle AND I think both her and Alexis told me I was a “cute rabbit.” I don’t know why but that totally amused me. xD
I also had several one-on-one conversations with Allison, April’s girlfriend. We geeked out on some of the most random things imaginable, subjects I thought I was the ONLY one in the DFW area to even care about! Examples include: Legend of the Seeker and the Kay Scarpetta series. It was awesome and very encouraging conversation.
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The last conversation I had with another person, one-on-one, was with one of the lit majors about the Korean War and vetera
ns. Random? I know.
And then some philosophy majors and some marxists gathered around the campfire in the backyard in order to intellectually debate the inherent worth of marxism in the modern age. It was perhaps one of most civil political debates I’ve heard in quite some time. And even though the arguments sometimes degraded into the realm of circular reasoning, it was still very refreshing to listen to. (Aaaaaaah college students. xD)
Meanwhile, I was staring intently at the fire. I was doing this because the positioning of the logs from where I was sitting totally looked like the Japanese symbol for fire. This somehow blew my mind for a good ten minutes until some guy attempted to stoke the fire and fucked the whole thing up. xD
Other topics of conversation for the night: comic con, douchey lit critics, queer films, poetry, and binders.
It was a weird night, but a good night.
And then someone dropped me off at home. It was nearly 5am. I slept like a corpse for almost 12 hours.
xD The end.
(And I apologize if this is as grammatically incorrect as hell. I’m kind of loopy at the moment and I don’t know why. xD)
